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Name: Daniel
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 9/14/1988
Interests: chatting on aim (sn: um yeh im daniel), playin my instruments n volleyball .. being a member of forensics, SADD, n the chorus ..
Expertise: lol it's me n my cake at my 15th b-day party
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Member Since:
7/19/2003
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| fine. ppl don't need me .. i just don't care anymore. all i wanted to do is help, n everyone thought i was trying to take over .. well fine then. i'm not going to the fuckin practices, i'm not going to the fuckin games, n i sure as hell am never ever gonna think you need help, cuz hey, I'M ONLY FUCKIN HUMAN TOO, RIGHT? yano, i'll even do you better!! i'll sever my ties with my old school (since it's all going fuckin downhill thanks to your "principal"), make an effort NEVER TO BUMP INTO ONE OF YOU AGAIN, and live the FUCKIN SECLUDED LIFE THAT MY PARENTS LAID OUT FOR ME!! I GUESS THAT would make you all happy, right?! you know .. if i act this way, it's only cuz i think i know what i'm doing, n i wanna fuckin help. cuz THAT'S ALL I'M FUCKIN GOOD FOR. i'm not some fuckin prodigy who gets a 100 in all his classes like everyone expects me to, i'm not God, but i'm trying to do the best i can .. n it's just so fuckin much n i'm bringin so fuckin much on myself that it actually makes me stay awake in bed until midnight wondering IF I FUCKIN FORGOT SOMETHING!! i do NOT like feeling like this, n i SURE AS FUCKIN HELL AM GONNA FIND A WAY TO END IT. | | |
| ::feels unloved:: lol
September 11, Johnny Cash, John Ritter, and a lot of other sad stuff September 11th's 2nd anniversary was yesterday... and Johnny Cash and John Ritter both died ...It's so amazing/awful in a way, because Johnny Cash had just gotten out of the hospital, and John Ritter was only freakin 54!! man .. this sucks very very badly .. plus .. god ... i need so much stuff right now .. and it's really beginning to stress me out.
school sophomore year is beginning to really get to me .. in the beginning it was all happy-pappy shit, but now it's getting down to the wire, and it's only the first fckin week .. my chem teacher has it in for me, i can't grasp everything i'm supposed to be learning in french .. it's just a load of work .. and crap ..
-_- i really like this girl, my best friend really .. and she knows it .. and i know there's nothing she can do about it, but she just doesn't like me back .. and it really tears me up inside, because i want her, and she doesn't want me, n the world's still fuckin turning .. i tried to make myself believe that it wasn't as important to me as i was making it, but dammit, it is, n i'm not ashamed to say it .. what i am ashamed about is whatever it is that makes her not like me .. i don't know, i seriously fuckin don't know .. am i too fat? too ugly? should i have been just some anonymous guy on the street who came up to her instead of being her best friend n growing into love? i mean dammit .. so many fuckin ways i can tear myself up over this, n i'm using every single one of them ..
identity crisis it's like i have no place in the world. i mean, u see these amazing ppl, all the singers, all the actors, the comedians, the popular ppl, and you see them doing something. n then it's like, you look around your own personal world, n you see the popular kids with the load of friends, you see those two guys who've been best friends since they were little kids, and you look at yourself, and it's like, where is THAT in my life? my friends all go out in a group n go to the mall n each other's houses n my fuckin parents won't let me get fuckin farther than two steps out of the apartment .. i might not even be able to go tomorrow if i don't clean the house first n if i don't have a ride .. it's so fckin unfair .. why did i have to be born daniel, why couldn't i be born justin, why couldn't i be born two years earlier, why couldn't i be more popular or cute or skinny, why can't i fckin make myself what i fckin wanna be?!
-daniel
i'm too distracted to even call myself kuya ..
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| goodbye dear xanga... our mommy's banning us from the internet and phone on weekends again .. everyone who reads this PROP LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW lol .. if i don't see lots of props by saturday, i'm gonna cry lol .. | | |
| what a messed up world katie n jellana almost got freakin RAPED!! wtf is this fckin world comin to .. if only i was there i would've .. um .. screamed like a girl n brought both of them with me to hide in a movie theatre but that'd show those bastards .. lol katie
and now for my next trick, i will let katie invade my xanga!! =D lol
-kuya daniel | | |
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